Asking For Help Prayer

[MajestyJo]

From "A Small White Card":

"Yet I had a spiritual experience the night I called A.A.,
though I didn’t realize it until later. Two angels came,
carrying a real message of hope, and told me about A.A.
My sponsor laughed when I denied that I had prayed for
help. I told him that the only time I had mentioned God was
when, in my despair at being unable to get either drunk or
sober, I had cried out, 'God! What am I going to do?'

"He replied, 'I believe that prayer was a pretty good one for a
first one from an atheist. It got an answer, too.'
– Brighton, Colorado, USA"

Came to Believe, 30th printing 2004, pg. 25

I really like this. How many times I took or spoke God's name in vane. How many times, I ignored His presence and chose to do things my way.

Looking back over the years, He was there. There were many times, that I should have been dead or hurt much more than I was. i.e. I was raped by one guy, there were three in the room.

I was in that situation because I listened to a person I thought was my friend instead of listening to myself.

I could really identify. I just taking more and more, and it wasn't enough. It wasn't until I stopped to think about where I was at and reached out for help, that my life changed.


This is a post from 2007

In today, I believe a prayer is a thought. I try to be careful of the thoughts that I send out and remember that what goes around, comes around.

God was there. I wasn't all there until I came into the program, worked the Steps and became whole.

A lot is our mean and our intent, is it real or conditional.

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[MajestyJo]

Quite often I get into a comfort zone and find myself resenting anything that comes into my life to threaten it. I was told that if you come to a place of comfort and it feels too good, especially if it is too good to be true, it is time to change. Like having an old pair of shoes, not wanting to go out and buying a new pair because you know you will have to break them in and may have to go through some pain and discomfort in order to break them in. In the long run, it is for your good and you are happy with the result, but it is in the getting there that we dig in our heels.

I can become complacent, taking things for granted, even my Higher Power. I know He is there, I know He knows, but I also know, He wants me to go to Him, not Him come to me! God helps them who helps themselves and I can't just sit back and not do the footwork or make the effort to change. I need to bring the willingness and courage, even if I have to pray for Him to get it.

I find that when I go to meetings it isn't so easy to slip into those old patterns, but because of my disability and not always able to be mobile, I need to make that conscious contact on a daily basis. I have my space, my place to talk to my God daily and it is out of bounds to others.


A trip into the past

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Some folks ride the train of life
Looking out the rear
Watching miles of life roll by
And marking every year.


They sit in sad remembrance
Of wasted days gone by
And curse their life for what it was
And hang their head and cry.


But I don't concern myself with that
I took a different vent
I look forward to what life holds
And not what has been spent.


So strap me to the engine
As securely as I can be
I want to be out on the front
To see what I can see.


I want to feel the winds of change
Blowing in my face
I want to see what life unfolds
As I move from place to place.


I want to see what's coming up
Not looking at the past
Life's too short for yesterdays
It moves along too fast.


So if the ride gets bumpy
While you are looking back
Go up front, and you may find
Your life has jumped the track.


It's alright to remember
That's part of history
But up front's where it's happening
There's so much mystery.


The enjoyment of living
Is not where we have been
It's looking ever forward
To another year and ten.


It's searching all the byways
Never should you refrain
For if you want to live your life
You gotta drive the train.

Author Unknown to me