II WITH THE GROUP: PRACTICE- What does the Big Book say to me about my practice of Step 4?
Share about experiences with resentments and how working the Steps worked on them. Points of Focus and Reflection (Consider pp. 64: 0-66: 2) Try reading these out loud. List assets and liabilities as to which behaviors and thought-habits work, and which do not work, to give serenity and peace of mind in life. See page 34 this workbook. A. The 1ST Working of the Grudge List: Who? How? What? Begin with centering silence. Ask for help. In dealing with resentments, we set them on paper. (64: 3)
Grudge List from this example (65: 2) I’m resentful at: Who? (People, Places, Things, Institutions, Principles, etc.) The Cause: How? How they hurt or threatened me. Affects my: What? What part of self affected that I reacted to.
1.) Who? The First Column: “Who hurt or threatened me?” (65: 0) I’m resentful at… (65: 2)
Who? (People, Places, Things, Institutions, Principles, etc.) …example… (65: 2) Mr. Brown Mrs. Jones My employer My wife p. 41 |
2.) How? The Second Column: “How did they hurt or threaten me?” (65: 2) After you have made the list of all the people, institutions, and principles that you resent, one at a time you are ready to begin to fill in the second column. You might consider selecting a few representative “grudges” to work on now, reserving the option to eventually work through all of them. |
B. The 2ND Working of the Grudge List: Why?“Why must I change?”
When we were finished we considered it [list] carefully. (65: 3) Begin with silence. 1.) Resentments build us up to a drink.
2.) If we drink, we die.
3.) To live and be free of anger.
C. What might we learn from the 1ST and 2ND working of the list? 1ST …Set them on paper. (64: 3) Who? How? What? We learned from the First Column of our grudge list that our anger and resentment at who hurt us or did not meet our expectations really does occupy our mind and controls us, and blocks us from the Spirit.
2ND …Considered it carefully. (65: 3) Why? “Why must I change?” Our present resentment habits lead to self pity, are a waste of time and, if we do not change, we may drink and die. Our own thought-habits lead us to drink.
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a.) Selfishness Concern for self regardless of others.
b.) Dishonesty A tendency to deceit, to conceal our true character.
c.) Self-seeking, inconsiderate Concern for self over (or under) others.
d.) Fear Dread. Self-reliance failed us. (68: 1)
3.) Our Faults a.)The Inventory is ours.
b.)List our faults.
C. Our Turnarounds by four workings of the Grudge List. Willing?“Am I willing to set it straight?” 1.) Willing. And were willing to set these matters straight. (67: 2) [Straight: Not crooked. Honest; by the rules; right; in bounds. Selfless, honest, loving, pure motives.] 2.) Turnarounds In order to save our own lives, we are turning from our habitual point of view. We stood at the turning point. (59: 1) Ideas, emotions, and attitudes which were once the guiding forces of the lives of these men are suddenly cast to one side, and a completely new set of conceptions and motives begin to dominate them. (27:4) We become willing to do things differently. We are willing to change. We turn around. 3.) * Meditate / PrayWe meditate / pray for the benefit of all. Many in AA use such a composite prayer on behalf of others and for themselves. [Optional: God of my understanding, bless _______ (including myself), for she/he is a sick person, and but by your grace, there go I. I pray for their health, happiness and prosperity. I pray I may show them the patience, kindliness and love I would want to be shown or that I would show a sick friend. God save me from being hurt, threatened, insulted, or angry. How may I help them? May thy will, not mine, be done. (See 67: 0; 552: 1)] p. 46-48 |
STEP 4 Resentment Grudge List (65: 1) Inventory Forms |
TEP 4 Resentment Turnarounds
For every item in the Third Column we ask, “Where am I responsible?” Make multiple copies or expand in your notebook. For every Third Column situation or event, and reaction, fill in resentment ‘turnarounds.’ “Where am I responsible?” We write down and share precisely and in detail what our motives were.
Where was I selfish? (67: 2) [Concern for self regardless of others. Self-absorbed.] - - - - - - - Where was I dishonest? (67: 2) [A tendency to deceit, conceal our true character, lack perspective. We believed our own lies.] - - - - - - - Where was I self-seeking (67: 2) or inconsiderate? (69: 1) [Concern for self over – or under – others.] - - - - - - - Where was I frightened? (67: 2) [Habitual anxiety: Afraid of losing something we have, not getting something we want, or of being found out for who we are.] - - - - - - - ………………………………………………………………………………. Write our faults. The inventory was ours, not the other man's. (67: 2) When we saw our faults we listed them. We placed them [faults] before us in black and white. (67: 2) Where was I at fault? (67: 2) [A seismic gap between our own and others’ deeply held values or our own instincts in collision. Out of bounds? Miss the mark?] - - - - - - - - - - (Why do we act this way? Because….see p. 338) ………………………………………………………………………………. Willing to set matters straight. Were willing to set these matters straight. (67: 2) Step 4 Resentment Turnaround Meditation / Prayer. [Optional: God bless _____________(including myself), for they are a sick person, and but by your grace, there go I. I pray for their health, happiness, and prosperity. I pray I may show them the patience, tolerance, kindliness and love I would want to be shown or that I would show a sick friend. God save me from being hurt, threatened, insulted or angry. How may I help them? May thy will, not mine be done. (See 67: 0; 552: 1)] pp. 51-52 |
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STEP 4 Fear Inventory Form The Big Book authors indicate that the best way to deal with our fears is to do exactly what we did with resentments: We write them down; we consider them carefully; we look at what part we played in creating them or in reacting to them; we list what our motives were in playing that part. (See 69: 3) Expand on this list as desired. Use multiple pages. The word “fear”… somehow touches about every aspect of our lives. … It set in motion trains of circumstances which brought us misfortune we felt we didn't deserve. (67: 3) …………………………………………………………………. Person 16. Institution Principle I fear. 17. “{#1}When did I first have this fear?” (See 68: 1) 1. 18. 2. 19. 3. 20. 4. 21. 5. 22. 6. 23. 7. 24. 8. 25. 9. 26. 10. 27. 11. 28. 12. 29. 13. 30. 14. 31. 15. 32. Etc., etc. p. 55 |
Step 4- Fears Fill in Second and Third Columns |
STEP 4 Fear Turnarounds
For every Third Column situation and our fear reaction, we fill in our ‘turnarounds.’ Make multiple copies or expand in your notebook. Where am I responsible? But did not we, ourselves, set the ball rolling? (67: 3) Write our Motives. Referring to our list again.Putting out of our minds the wrongs others had done, we resolutely looked for our own mistakes.Where had we been selfish, dishonest, self-seeking and frightened? (67: 2) We write down and share precisely and in detail what our motives were. …………………………………………………………………………………. Where was I selfish? (67: 2) [Concern for self regardless of others. Self-absorbed.] - - - - - - - Where was I dishonest? (67: 2) [A tendency to deceit, conceal our true character, lack perspective. We believed our own lies.] - - - - - - - Where was I self-seeking (67: 2) or inconsiderate? (69: 1) [Concern for self over – or under – others.] - - - - - - - Where was I frightened? (67: 2) [Habitual anxiety: Afraid of losing something we have, not getting something we want, or of being found out for who we are.] - - - - - - - ………………………………………………………………………………. Write our faults. The inventory was ours, not the other man's. When we saw our faults we listed them. We placed them [faults] before us in black and white. (67: 2) Where was I at fault? (67: 2) [A seismic gap between our own or others’ deeply held values or our own instincts in collision. Out of bounds? Miss the mark?] - - - - - - - - - - (Why do we act this way? Because….see p. 338) ………………………………………………………………………………. Willing to change. Step 4 Fear Turnaround Meditation / Prayer. 3rd Fear question: “{#3}May I share my feelings and experiences about trusting and relying on the higher power of my understanding?” (See 68: 2, 3) - - - - [Optional: God of my understanding, I pray that you remove my fear and direct my attention to being who you would have me be today. May thy will, not mine, be done. (See 68: 3)] pp. 57-58 |
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STEP 4 Relationship / Sex (64 – 65) Inventory Forms
Who? Whom had we hurt? (69: 1) We reviewed our own conduct over the years past. (69: 1) List all the people, institutions, and principles we have caused trouble for through our sexual conduct and relationship behaviors. We work down our list from top to bottom, just writing names for now. We ignore the Second and Third columns for the time being. ………………………………………………………………………………… Person 16. Institution Principle I hurt 17. 1. 18. 2. 19. 3. 20. 4. 21. 5. 22. 6. 23. 7. 24. 8. 25. 9. 26. 10. 27. 11. 28. 12. 29. 13. 30 14. 31. 15. 32. Etc, etc. p. 61 |
Step 4- Inventory Relationships (including Sex) (64-65) |
Relationship and Sex Turnarounds
Make multiple copies or expand in your notebook. The nine ‘sex and relationship questions’ (1 - 9) We reviewed our own conduct over the years past. Where had we been selfish, dishonest, or inconsiderate? Whom had we hurt? Did we unjustifiably arouse jealousy, suspicion or bitterness? Where were we at fault, what should we have done instead? We got this all down on paper and looked at it. (69: 1) …………………………………………………………………………. [1] Where was I selfish? (67: 2) [Concern for self regardless of others. Self-absorbed.] - - - - [2] Where was I dishonest? (67: 2) [A tendency to deceit, conceal our true character, lack perspective. We believed our own lies.] - - - - [3] Where was I self-seeking (67: 2) or inconsiderate? (69: 1)? [Concern for self over – or under – others.] - - - - Where was I frightened? (67: 2) [Habitual anxiety: Afraid of losing something we have, not getting something we want, or of being found out for who we are.] - - - - [4] Whom did I hurt? (69: 1) [To knock, strike, upset, offend.] (See First Column) - - - - [5] Where did I arouse jealousy? (69: 1) [Resentment, envy, and fear of being displaced in one’s affections.] - - - - [6] Suspicion? (69: 1) [Expectation or dread of something wrong.] - - - [7] Bitterness? (69: 1) [Animosity. Grievous to the mind, etc.] - - - [8] Where was I at fault? (67: 2) [A seismic gap between our own deeply held values or our own instincts in collision. Out of bounds? Miss the mark?] - - - [9] What could I have done instead?What should we have done instead? (69: 1) - - - Was I selfish? We subjected each relation to this test - was it selfish or not? (69: 2) (Why do we act this way? Because….see p. 338) - - - Sane and sound ideals for a future sex / relationship life: We tried to shape a sane and sound ideal for our future sex life. (69: 2) - - - Am I willing to grow toward these ideals?Whatever our ideal turns out to be, we must be willing to grow toward it. (69: 3) - - - People with whom I will take counsel on sex / relationship matters:Counsel with persons is often desirable... (70: 0) - - .................................................. .................................................. ........................ Willingto change. Step 4 Relationship / Sex Turnaround Prayers
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