Looked at the title and thought, "A whole lot of crap going on." So many times my head is so full, I forget the little things that are important in life. Those little things add up, and we often let them go waiting for bigger things.
Recovery is about living life on life's terms. Toilet paper is a reality. It is like going around and thinking yours doesn't stink. You are different. I am better than they are, I didn't..., even when you do what others do.
Get rid of all the crap in your head, wipe the slate clean, make room for new things, open your mind and you will recover.