Welcome Ashley Ruth and Robert. Thank you both for signing in and sharing with us. For me, it is about one day at a time. Don't use, not matter what. Substitution took me back to my drug of choice. Isolation, not only blocks me from family and friends, it blocks me from my God.
What I did last week, last month, or last year, won't keep me clean and sober in today. I can learn from past mistakes, or go to that shelf and look over the things I put up there for a later date to see if it is now time to dust them off and apply them to my life.
Words and thoughts mean nothing, they are powerless unless I follow them up with action. Accepting my disease or if it makes the medicine go down a little better, a dis-ease. I spen my life looking outside of myself for something to make me feel better because I couldn't find it within myself. My God has gifted me that through the 12 Step program.
Making the same mistake over and over again, and expecting different results is the insantity of our disease, that tells us that we don't have it. Just because I make a mistake, does not mean I am one.
Just for today, I choose not to use people, places, and things. I had to change people, places and things, and put new things into my life, into my body, and into my thinking. For me, it was the thinking, not the drug that caused me the problem. A drug is a drug, the problem is me.
Thank you both for making the decision to join our family. My drug of choice was more too. More of what I am having, more of what every I could talk you out of, and more of anything else that comes my way. The body manufactures the pain to tell you that you need more. Enough is never enough.
