When I came into recovery, I asked my spiritual advisor and NA sponsor, "What do I need to change?" He said, "Everything."
I was told to change sponsors, but the man had 11 more year than I had, he went to AA, even though he was a recovering addict. My first sponsor called herself a pot head and my last sponsor was addicted to heroin. They were triggered in NA, and went to AA.
In NA, they say, "Alcohol is a drug." So it is about going where you feel comfortable. I went to AA for my denial. I went to NA for identification. I went to Al-Anon and found myself because of my past, my parent, my two failed marriages, two sponsees going back out and not making it back in, and a son who is in active addiction.
We don't quit forever. We quit one day at a time. Just for today, for me, people, places, and things. The drug is but a symptom of my disease (dis-ease), and the problem is me.
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Love always,
Jo
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