Hi Rachel
Glad you found us. Congratulations on the beginning of your journey. I, too, suggest that you begin to go to meetings. Listen to women share and seek someone who has the kind of recovery you desire and ask her to be your sponsor.
Always better to have someone you can meet face-to-face. In the meantime we are here for you. Feel free to private message us or start a thread in our Daily Check In forum.
I look forward to sharing with you.