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Old 04-17-2015, 01:12 AM   #2
MajestyJo
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That is a new one on me. I don't think your hands have anything to do with being an alcoholic. I found that it was a thinking problem more so than a drinking problem. Mind you my hand kept reaching out for more, because my mind kept telling me that I could conquer this demon alcohol and that this time it would be different.

I am not making fun. They say, "One is too many, a thousand isn't enough." When I didn't have it, I was thinking about it, the ways and means to get more. It wasn't how much I drank, it was about what it did to me when I drank it. I could match my ex-husband and my father drink for drink, I could walk a straight line, drive them home, and have nothing but contempt for them because they were following down drunks, and be totally resentful because they drank all the booze and didn't leave any for me. Who had the drinking problem? They had the problem because they couldn't handle it! I could handle it just fine, just watch me. The only problem was, it got so it took more to get to the feeling I was looking for. Then when I got to that feeling, I couldn't stop there. More was not enough, and alcohol stopped working for me and I started looking for other things to add to the alcohol like gravol (the candy that made everything work so much faster), codeine, food, men and relationships, work/busy, anything that allowed me to escape the pain and cope with life and take me out of myself and NOT look at myself.

I took stuff that made my hands shake. I ended up with a tremon disorder and when I was several years sober, people thought I was a newcomer. I walked into a rhuematologist's office and a neurologist's office and they both said a drink of alcohol would take away the tremon, so they gave me pills to take away the tremon and here I was trying to stay away from pills. Thank God for the program. I had to take my thinking about the pills to my Higher Power and ask for help.

Not sure what you wanted to know. Shaky, clammy hands are generally a sign anxiety and stress. We get that way when we detox too, it takes 11 months to detox from alcohol.

Hope this helps. If you have further questions, feel free to ask. If I am way off base about what you want to know, let me know.

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