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May 10

Wisdom for Today
With addiction there are but two choices. The first is to go on to the bitter end. To do this we must blot out all of the painful memories and reality of our current existence. We also dare not look at the future. If we choose the path of staying with our addiction, we cannot live in the past; we cannot live in today and we cannot live in tomorrow. We can only live in the world filled with self-delusion. With addiction we must continue to try to live in the lie. The existence of living in addiction is intolerable unless we continue to stay completely numb to our own existence.
The other choice is to accept spiritual help. This perhaps is one of the hardest things for an alcoholic or an addict to do. We have lived a life of self-will run riot. In recovery we must learn that we can no longer rely on our will, and learn to follow a Divine will. We need to become willing to maintain a simple attitude toward life. A higher power exists and is here to help us. This is a simple principle; yet is often easier said than done. It is so easy for us to go back to our old ways. We struggle with continually going back to running the show our way. It is not until we’re ready to let go absolutely and turn our will and our life over to the care of God, as we understand Him; that we truly began to make progress. We must learn that our way doesn’t work, and surrendering to His will is the only thing that does. It is in this surrender that we find freedom. Am I making the right choice today?
Meditations for the Heart
Each day we need look in the mirror and examine ourselves. This needs to become a daily ritual for us all. We must examine our character. We must look at our behavior, our thinking, and our intentions. You must look at all of these things in relationship to our daily lives, to those we love, and in relationship to our Higher Power. This daily examination of ourselves should lead us to a recognition of our shortcomings, as well as help us to identify where we have been wrong. Part of our task each day will need to be cleaning up our side of the street. We need to admit our wrongs and then seek to right them. We must examine our lives and make decisions about where we need to grow. Most importantly, we need to determine if we are indeed following God’s will. You must seek to understand the ways in which He wants us to change. We must ask for his help and guidance in making these changes. Recovery is a process of always growing. Am I willing to look in the mirror each day?
Petitions to my Higher Power
God,
Help me this day to examine my life. Help me this day to seize every opportunity for growth. Give me the courage and strength to make progress toward a better life. Help me never to be satisfied with who I am; instead help me to seek who it is You want me to be. Let me live my life today as you would want me to.
Amen