Welcome Kathylady, so glad you made the decision to join our family. Our disease is cunning, baffling, and powerful. It wasn`t until I came into the fellowship(s), that I could stay stopped. I had many issues I needed to address. If I hadn`t looked at the whole picture, I would have relapsed, it wasn`t something I did do immediately, I just did what I could do in the day to stay clean and sober and the rest followed.