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Sunday, August 23, 2015
You are reading from the book Food for Thought
Envy
When my inside looked at your outside, I overate. Envy of what others seemed to be and of the possessions they had was a prime trigger for overeating, turning to food to compensate for an apparent lack. No amount of food can satisfy envy.
Why is it that the other person seems so much more fortunate, or talented, or happier than we? We are painfully aware of our own inadequacies and quick to envy whoever appears to "have it together." Looking at the outside image or mask is deceptive, however, and prevents us from seeing that underneath is a fellow human being beset with problems and difficulties just as we are.
Who we are, where we are, and what we have is God's gift to us. What we do with ourselves is our gift to God. The more we seek to do His will, the less we envy our neighbor's abilities and possessions. The peace of mind we receive through this program fills us with such gratitude that there is increasingly less room for envy.
Take away my envy, I pray.
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How many times I ate and drank to other people's health. Anger was a big one for me, and the old mind set, "Don't tell me what to do." That empty feeling, not knowing it was a void that was often mental, emotional, and spiritual, most times it wasn't physical, especially when I overate.
When I quit cigarettes at 7 years sober, I went to NA and got key tags, and used the program instead of food to fill the void, left by the loss of my best friend which I didn't want to give up. They were such a great crutch and covered a multitude of sins. The insanity of our disease; standing in the middle of your living room floor with your legs crossed, trying to light a cigarette, so you can go to the bathroom.