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PAIN
“Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses
your understanding. Even as the stone of the fruit
must break, that its heart may stand in the sun,
so must you know pain."
Kahlil Gibran
There was much to be unhappy about in my childhood. There was also a lot of unhappiness in my adult life. Until I found The Recovery Group online, that unhappiness was the driving force in my life. That force robbed me of the ability to see and enjoy the many wonderful things that I had experienced. I wore a cloak of sadness, bitterness and resentment ~ I had been short-changed. It was the old glass-half-empty, glass-half-full story....poor me.
Being able to share the pain and unhappiness I have known has freed me from the power it had over me. Clearing away the wreckage is enabling me to see my part in some of the unhappiness I've known. It has enabled me to see more clearly that there is so much for which I can be grateful. It has enabled me to see that I truly AM the person of value which I had represented myself to be towards others. I am integrating that person into the "unacceptable" being I carried within. I have seen others here endure challenge, pain and hardships with so much grace. I have learned that pain is, indeed, inevitable. I have the choice whether to dwell on the pain morbidly, or to instead focus on the joy of this day.
One day at a time...
I will live in the joy of this day and I will strive to share this wonderful gift of self-acceptance to others in program.
~ Karen A.
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Pain was why I used for many years. I was given Valium at 16 by my doctor. Doctor's where my supplier for years. It wasn't until I could look at my pain and realize that emotion and mental elements were making themselves know physically, and physical and body memories where making themselves known mentally and emotionally.
I had to get to know my body. I had to get to know me. I had to ask for the cleansing and the healing of my body, mind, and spirit.
As they say, "It isn't always what you eat, but what is eating you?"
I have to accept my pain daily. More importantly, I have to acknowledge it before I can accept it. I no longer want to be the victim or the martyr.