It was important for me to change the habits before I could put down the cigarettes. I also had to clean my whole house and make it smoke free. I had to change my routines by not smoking when on the computer, not having a cigarette after a meal or when I was playing Queen of the House sitting on the Throne!
There are still days that I would love to have a cigarette. To pick one up would kill me faster than anything else. I couldn't quit because of fear, I had to come to a spiritual decision, I wanted to be a clean, clear channel to carry the message of recovery.
I went to NA, as there was no NicA in my area. I lost 3 lbs. instead of gaining 30 lbs.
I held crystals in my hand to ground me and help me to get through the feelings of craving. Praying and asking for the help to quit and to heal.
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Love always,
Jo
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