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Old 06-26-2016, 06:22 PM   #2
MajestyJo
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Thank you for sharing. You don't need alcohol when you are using other substances. I substituted with prescription drugs, they were like dried up alcohol, I had the same feelings and actions of those who just drank alcohol. I didn't think I was an alcoholic because I didn't like beer, I could walk a straight line, had the cops follow me home and I stayed on my own side of the road, I could match my ex-husband and my dad drink for drink and they were following down drunks and I had the resentment when they drank all the liquor when they couldn't handle it. They should have left some for me because I wasn't finished partying yet. That is when I started hiding my alcohol in a tupperware glass so I would have that something extra. I later learned that my son's first drink was my glass of something extra.

I aim for sobriety (soundness of mind) and I have to apply the program to my eating disorder as well as my alcohol and drug addiction. They say what you don't deal with will take you back out. I know that when I made the decision that I needed help, I was drinking and doing drugs. I pushed everyone away and I was in total isolation. Not only physically, but mentally and spiritually as well.

I don't have a drinking and drugging problem in today, but my emotional sobriety takes daily work. It is the thinking that took me to places that were harmful to my health and well being. Thanks to the program, I choose not to use in today. When I pick up, my freedom of choice is taken from me, and my drug of choice becomes my 'god' of the day.

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