Thanks for sharing. I had to pray for the willingness to be willing to stop when I quit cigarettes. I asked that the obsession be removed from me.
We are changed, generally we are the last to see it if we stay clean and sober. It is one day at a time, Just for today, I choose not to use. That is how I have lived my life for the last 24 years. I am just as vulnerable as any one else if I don't apply and work my program of recovery.
My prayers are with you.