FOOD FOR THOUGHT- OA/AUGUST 2014

[MajestyJo]

Friday, August 8, 2014

You are reading from the book Food for Thought

Reflecting Light

We are made to reflect the goodness and light of our Higher Power. In order to do this, we need to be as free as possible of the negative emotions and self-will which block out God's light. The light is always here. It is our job to keep ourselves free from the entanglements and hang-ups, which cloud our vision.

Our primary means of staying in the light is to abstain from compulsive overeating. Without clean abstinence, we become muddled in our thinking and in our emotions. God's light and love can shine through our lives if we are physically ready to receive and reflect.

Working the Steps frees us from the negative emotions, which block out the light. At first we may have wondered how the Twelve Steps were related to our problems. As we progress in the program, we see that without the spiritual growth, which they facilitate, we cannot be fully open to the light from our Higher Power.

Prepare me to reflect Your light.

Didn't do a good job today. I bought brownies and before I knew it they were all gone. There are 8 in a pkg. and round like a cupcake, the only thing is it takes two brownies to make a whole cupcake. I had two cupcakes, and when they kept calling me, an hour late I had another one and emptied the bag.

It is bad enough that they are chocolate brownies, but I added chocolate icing. I didn't stop to think of them as stuffing, fear, and comfort. I don't like Friday and ever week it is a confrontation between my son and myself.

I did meditation earlier in the day, again when I posted, but in between I had already bought the brownies. I have to forgive myself and ask my God for forgiveness. I thought they were better than taking pills, but it just goes to show you, the substance comes in many forms and they all lead to wanting more. Just for today,I choose not to buy any more brownies.

I knew it was wrong but I turned a blind eye and blocked the light.